ouch, those were not my feelings you hurt.

ouch, those were not my feelings you hurt... honestly... Lets go rockclimbing, and then dinner, so i spend all day excited. stoaked. anticipating... that i get to hang out with Guy and so im sitting at home, 2 hours later... "hmm" and three hours later. "hmmmm".. so 3 1/2 hours later i send message.. i get a call.. I am at home he says, "your at home?" oopz i forgot we were supposed to hang out.. Umm you forgot?? REALLY? So i am dissapointed (again), hurt, resentful, and feeling very very stupid. why do i keep letting some fat, balding, chain smoking, over worked, greedy, selfish IE boy; make me feel worthless. i am in charge of my feelings, and my self worth, but dammit sometimes things get to ya. And this is really getting to me, i fell in love, with an adorable mountain boy, he called me, sent me emails, wanted to know how MY day was, took me out, made me feel special, introduced me to his friends., was active, funny, polite. Not anymore. people change, i have, but not as much. Ohhh what to do.. what to do? this has not turned out the way i wanted it to. but i just cant fully quit this. just not yet. still trying, but ONE person cannot try, it must be two. even if dating is the only outcome